pop goes the world

have i ever used this subject before? i will stand amazed if i have not. am i a miserable wretch for feeling exploded so often? i watched a special, after watching a special on the flooding of new orleans while sitting in new orleans, on the world's greatest implosions. for a few hours i changed my messenger status to "gwendolyn p. the world's greatest implosion", but that felt hyperbolic and i replaced it.

most of the world's greatest implosions are sporting stadiums. some are hated by the fans and so there are loud cheers when they implode. others are much loved and replaced by modern monstrosities and people have mixed feelings on their implosion. people are very silly because they usually have started building the new structure before they destroy the older one so all sorts of elaborate precautions are needed to protect the new structure. this is why they have worked very hard at creating the world's greatest implosion techniques so that the old buildings can fall in on themselves without disturbing anything around them.

everyone i have ever really loved must have been part of some granfalloon. i don't talk to them at all anymore, i'm not pleased about this state of affairs one bit.

i think this is a picture of a 1-bit computer.

one of them said specifically i was part of his karass when we first met. he is the reason i started thinking about reading every vonnegut book. it is his birthday today. we don't talk even though we are supposedly friends and so i have not said happy birthday. i have a book and a card to give him if we were to talk but i don't imagine this will happen. i think perhaps vonnegut was thinking of "my ass" and "care" when he made up the word karass? and maybe vonnegut would understand that i am depressed i have not found a duprass. many people don't seem to understand.

most people would tell me i need to toughen up. but no one beats me up. i am not really sure many people could. i am big and i am strong. i'm just afraid of being ignored. vonnegut seems to think most people misbehave because they are treated like bit characters. i would suppose he makes them all main characters at some point (as he mentions his intention to in breakfast of champions) so that they behave better.

this is the inside of a wireless ship cabin (marconi, listen to the radio, 1910) that a man named andy bleck drew. it is blurry so you should go look at a better version on andy's website. i found this picture because i looked for images of "one bit" and andy says that the victorian chair is the "one bit" of this picture that gives away its age.

is it really impossible to be a central character in the lives of most people you come to really know, well, at least the ones you have loved? it is good that we modern people are being built to better crumble in ways that don't bother the structures around us.